****Disclaimer: I promise that all my posts will not revolve around some physical ailment! It just so happens that the Lord decided to teach me something through my teeth today and I felt the need to share it! ****************
So I have had a toothache off and on for awhile now. I went to the dentist a few weeks ago and thought he had fixed the problem, but it really starting hurting again a few days ago. When it started to ache again, I did what comes naturally to me- I took some medicine. And when it didn't stop hurting quick enough for me, I prayed and asked the Lord to make it stop. We can stop right there and recognize that I have things a bit askew, but that's not really the point I am going for.
(Although, that is something that I really do need to take note of as I become more and more aware that my daughter is watching EVERYTHING I do and I want to teach her to go to Jesus first in all things! So I guess I need to be reminded to do the same!)
But I digress...here's the thing, my toothache went away! And it hasn't started up again in over 24 hours. All day yesterday I was just waiting for the pain medicine to wear off and to pop another pill. But it didn't. I realized today that the Lord answered my prayer and I am sorry to say that I found myself surprised. What's wrong with my thinking here? Doesn't the Lord always have my best in mind? Why do I seem to have enough faith to pray and ask Him to heal my tooth, but I completely doubt His willingness to do just that? Doesn't He love me more than anyone else does and is always finding ways to glorify Himself in my life?
What's even more disappointing is that Cale and I had been talking about his very idea a few weeks ago as we were studying John 11 when Lazarus dies. We had read a commentary that talked about the idea of believing that Jesus has the ability to meet our needs, but we are shocked when He actually does it. The author said that the we are shocked because we think that He is more interested in helping other people out than showing up in our lives in a very personal way.
The conversation Cale and I had came back to me this morning when I was eating my very crunchy cereal for breakfast and realized I was fine. No pain. And still none as I write this. So I have been reminded today that even in my unbelief Jesus comes to me and meets me and fills my life with grace that I don't deserve.
May your life be filled with the same.