Do you know what I love?
Hearing Haven scream and cry every morning when her daddy leaves. I know that sounds a bit twisted, but it really just warms my heart. She adores Cale almost as much as I do and is of an age where it's appropriate for her to yell and scream when he leaves. Believe me, there are some days when I want to do the same, but refrain because it doesn't seem like I would be as cute as she is doing it.
There is nothing that makes me smile and laugh more than when I watch the two of them playing, laughing and chasing each other. It is pure, unadulterated, mutual adoration. They simply delight in one another. Building towers, reading books, playing sea monster with Noah's ark- it doesn't matter what it is, Haven absolutely delights in her daddy's attention.
When Haven was a newborn, Cale and I would just sit and watch her and be completely enamored of her every gurgle and almost smile. She couldn't do anything for us and we certainly had a one sided relationship in the giving department it seemed. But it didn't matter, we just loved her because she was Haven.
The Lord showed me during that time that the way we felt about her is the way He always feels towards us. He doesn't love us more when I am doing lots of great things "for Him" or when I have consistent, quality quiet times. He loves me and delights in me just because I'm me, His child.
And in the gentle way that only He can do, the Lord is continuing that lesson in my heart today as I watched Haven cry when Cale left this morning. She longs to be with him, to be in his presence, to have his attention. She delights in it; she is full of joy and doesn't care what else is going on if she and daddy are playing.
I'm sure you can see where this is going. I know that the Lord delights in me, for me. But the question in my heart and mind today is am I delighting in Him? Do I long to be with Him and in His presence? Am I so caught up in Him that the rest of the world fades away- even if it's just for a few minutes a day?
Life is busy. It's hectic. There are a lot of demands for my time. But I want to feel the way Haven feels! I want to bask in the attention of my Heavenly Father. To soak in His love, His care, His appreciation, and His freedom to be myself.
So that's what's on my agenda for the day. To stop and take the time. I'm certain it will be the best part of my day.